It’s midnight.. and I haven’t sleep.... what is actually going on with me??perhaps…I miss the old days..the true friendship and the happiest friendship I ever had…I miss all my bestie around me…hang out, mingle and even gossiping about the girly stuff…I miss my ex-colleagues...all the jokes, the memories and the funniest things happened in the middle of our busiest day with the students, mid-term, about the fish that used to be the trend in the lecturers’ room and even perhaps about the unnecessarily stuff but still it was really fun!! …wow..this is so suddenly… it’s hard to describe but I guess I just miss my friends…my bestie and perhaps my ex- colleagues or should I say that this is a masochists??…being an educator, there are so many beautiful things happen and vice versa which mean sometimes you need to do some scarification…I accept that and I am glad that God gives me a beautiful sweet and sour of life…honestly speaking I missed the old days…I miss the great friendship and I literally miss it so much….
but that was a few months back… and in the present…life must go on....people comes in and out in my life..from the adorable, the funniest, the joker, the wisest and not forgetting the worst…but that is not the main point…sometimes, I blame myself for being so negative thinker…I blame myself for being in an emotional turmoil just in the blink of an eyes and perhaps all the blind siding and the glaring mistake that I keep on blaming others…and to sum up everything…I am not perfect and I never be perfect… i meet a wonderful peoples around me and I do meet some psychobabble and annoying peoples around me… but the point is…I’m just a human being,.. fragile and easily hurt…sometimes…I don’t know why people loves to do all the backbiting..perhaps with or without I realize? or should I just questioned myself….do I really can trust all the bizarre sixth sense that I am feeling right now?? Or should I questioned myself…do I really can trust others??hmmm…..only God knows…so…I will hold this quote “ don’t trouble, trouble until trouble troubles you”….may god lead me to a right path for I am sinner…amen
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