Sometimes, I’m strong and sometimes I don’t…sometimes, I believe and sometimes I almost losing hope..i still remembered during my university time, where all you need to do is to score with flying colours and enjoy life while you still can have it as a sweet reminiscence…. Before this, I never take my life as complicated as today…and now I realized that the more I grow up the more stumble and fall I might face in the future. Now, I realize that I need to work on my own life and create what kind of future I need to hold for my entire life. If last year, my life was surrounded with assignments, exam and presentation but today, my life is about how I make sure everything turn out well on creating my real journey to stand on my own feet in various aspect..

Sometimes, I feel like it’s a burden as I need to make sure the road that I’m leading to will be going smoothly without any regrets. Besides, I feel the burden now, if before this, all my necessity was my parents’ responsibility but now, everything seems to be my own responsibility in all aspect. From the bills, the payment, the plan, and the decisions are truly in me. Moreover, between end of the year or perhaps next year, I am planning to buy my own car by using my own money, so I guess there’ll be a lot of dollar will soon come out from my own pocket and it seems that the ball is in my court!

Besides that, being an educator is a lot of fun especially when dealing with adult. I love teaching the adult and most of my students are more bigger than me…perhaps other people might think that teaching the adults are lot easier but the truth is be that as it maybe as I need to understand them and use the correct physiology with them. and then, they will respect you…but if you don’t, say hell to your job as you will be alienated by them and they might not going to listen to you.

The truth is…. I’m still adapting myself in a new situation and perhaps that’s make me a better person even life is not really into a perfectionism in every situation but like I say, every cloud has it’s on silver lining and sometimes we need a thousand miles to be patience with the circle of life. I am still having a little dilemma in me as I perpetually keep thinking and worry the journey I’m heading to…

It’s been such a long time I ignore my blog and I almost forgot about it..not to say I’m lazy to update my blog but sometimes a bunch of works makes me almost on the go with everything moreover when I was quite busy with my convocation kind of thing last week.….

It was really exhausted as I needed to be in rushed especially when I had my night classes with my students and in the same time, I needed to catch on my flight right after my night classes and went to the airport to my hometown, Tawau..and early in the morning, flew over to KL….geee.. That’s really tiring!! But, it was one of an emancipation of all the stresses with the lectures, assessments as well as all the busy hazy work in the office when finally at the end of the busiest day, I could released my tension to go for a vacation even only for 4 days and, attending my convocation ceremony in putrajaya which was fun even it was crowded but that’s the best moment in my life!

Besides, all the exhaustion was been paid as most of my time was spent on enjoying the KL lifestyle which really made me felt feisty with the trip …besides, settling all the convocation kind of thing I was really excited for the ‘shopping part’ hahha!!!....i almost broke in KL because of the over-spending for shopping especially shopping for dresses and anything that was on sale!!!ahahhah!!!gosh!!! I was a shopaholic devil and just like the statement says “shop till you drop but for me, shop till the leg can’t even walk anymore!!hahah..i really need to do a massage!!! I guess even I was staying in a hotel, but I felt like most of my time was spent outside the hotel and paint the town red!

All in all, I had done my shopping and my convocation on 31th October 2009…so here’s the picture that worth a thousand words and memories….

Sometimes, what we expect will be turn other around. Perhaps, I am not as lucky as others in term of certain situation but I believe that every cloud has its own silver lining and the truth is we must be patience and always believe in what ever we believe even it may takes time to reach the goal and the self-satisfaction in life.

Suddenly this come out from my mind and now how I realize life is not as easy as ABC as for all the journey of life, there’s always stumble and fall that sometimes make us feel the pain and the silent cry that no one knows but between you and the god intervention. Like I said, perhaps I am unlucky sometimes and perhaps my journey of life is not as simple as others or as easy as other people, but I guess I need to be stronger than other people as I know my position, my situation, my root and my blood that to reach that stage is even harder but I guess I need to take the less traveled road that no one even dare to take the risk….and I know my journey starts form the bottom..ya the very bottom line….

I know the time will always be my side even I have to stand alone to get the hardest diamond ….

OMG!!! Another quandary….i want to confess that today I had spent RM 100, shopping for clothes…geee, I feel the quandary….i had told myself that I will wait my desire of shopping until next week as I will be going to KL…but I feel the anxiousness …anxiousness of my bloody heart that I really can’t wait for the moment to come as I wrongly misusing the money and now I had deducted RM100 of my saving for my future shopping in KL!!!GEEE!!!I’M getting nut!

gtg!!!...work!work!work!!