such an innocent girl to face calamity in her life...

life must be carry on and accept things that had happened

but still she can smiles...even how pain it might be inside

Can you imagine? Living without both of our legs?and life with half of the body? Can you imagine how might the feeling and the dilemma will be? How miserable it will be to face the challenging walks of life? Perhaps, we can’t feel the true feeling when the situation is not on us but we can see what the eyes can tell as there’s not tales that lies in our eyes when we see these pictures.

Thanks to God that we still can be a normal person with legs and even can use a pair of nicest shoes without any hesitation as well as anxiety. But, with full of my empathy to see such a lovely girl, who still don’t even know what the world’s going on but only knows the happiness of her childhood…that’s the power of the human spirit that shown at its mightiest by this one little girl named Qian HongYan who lost her legs in an accident Her family in China are poor and couldn't afford prosthetic legs, so she uses a basketball to help her move. Apart from that, she uses two wooden props to drag herself, and never complain, yet she attends her class, always smile and cheerful to accept the reality of her condition.

That’s the patience that every human falls sometimes and even sometimes, we think that our problems are the worst things in life but we forget that there’s others who faces more sadistic phantasmagoria that sometimes hard to be describe but still strong with spiritual maturity in them. Well, strength does not come only from physical capacity but it comes from an indomitable determination to keep on track to face the reality even how tragic it might be.

This, is my second weeks teaching for part-time intensive English and although it’s still new but I am so happy to see some improvement from my students. Starting from a person who can’t even speak a little but now can speak English.. perhaps 30%.. that’s better than none. But, that doesn’t mean that I am satisfied with their improvement as I’m hoping more from giving and receiving the knowledge.

Since, some of my students can’t pronounce the words correctly; I had done some of my own research by teaching them the basic phonetic. I guess, using phonetic for the students who consider as a low elementary level and can’t even pronounce the word very well is actually effective. Even I am teaching those from my own age and even more older than me, but I guess my job as an educator is more challenging as I am facing variety cognitive level of my students. One of my student, really impress me with the use of her English but her problems is only with her spelling. For example:

“ I am Darysa. My father name’s, my mather name’s Dary.i’m a number thou from tree of my sister. My oldest sister name Wati. My younges sister name’s Darniati. My father job simen saling and famer. My mum’s a housewife. My oldest siste olredy married. She have one son and a job same like my mum’s it housewife. She’s hasband job is macanik. Yanges siste a job at lembaga elektrik and me work a sales girl. I’m live in kota kinabalu.

Olthough we a sisters but our attitiud is very different. Oldest sister more to surrender. Yaunges sister very stubborn and me very naughty, tease and mouth talkative. So, is have discusseand, my father more like discusse with one persend because he not’s thuid like that, the discusseand be come change to a fight. Specialy me and yaunges neave understanding eachother. Oldest sister I neve had problem with hem.

You no samething, wen I’m far from eachother, I’m file mis him. Special my yanges sister.”

I am not so sure whether this might be effective. But what I do, I ask her to write the correct spelling one more time… but I guess, it’s getting improve…some of the words, she can spell it correctly…but still need a lot of improvement. Since I had teach them the use of grammar for possessive ‘s, she really applies it correctly even a little grammatical error here and there.

Different from one of my student who can’t even pronounce the words correctly, I used phonetic to teach her. For example,

wife - / waif/

Sister - / ‘sis tə/

Married - / ‘ mærid /

This is fun learning for students who can’t pronounce the words correctly. Phonetic is the answer. But, some of my friend said that perhaps I can teach them by using jolly phonic…but, what the hell is that?? Ahhaha.. I’ll try to research on that later on. I can’t imagine, now I’m applying all this things. I do learn all this in uni but now I know…learning is not just sit and learn, it’s something that you need to apply towards learning…! Damn!!hahha.!!

But, here’s another different situation… one of my student write or talk with be my malay translation to English learning. For example:

“ My name is Rockefeller Jensen Guan Bee my family from means my fathers name Guan Bee Kim Kuan and my mothers name is Illy Fung and my sister Kelly, Wendy, Shally and I, Rockefeller. My sister first married on 2003 year and sharing product some live husband has a three child two son and one daughter.

Second sister and third sister and I still single. My sister nember two and three wihn enter muslim so my fathers don’t enter at the Muslim because from grandfather and grandmother no enter at muslim so whan enter muslim speaks my fathers silence my sister nember two and three enter at muslim.

Anew what my father angry some my sister’s because no love my sister enter muslim so my speak order one don’t religion convert anew. Order that make final my sister and i.”

OMG!!! THIS ONE….I DON’T KNOW HOW TO use a suitable method??any ideas??? hhehhehehe

Well, finally…I’ve got something to talk about inside my blog. How I miss blogging so much. After all the jingle and mingle with my friends, at last I’ve got something to share to others…

Sometimes, love is an object of an obsession, everybody wants it, everybody seeks it, but few ever achieve it.. and because of love we cherish all the trust and the hope for a better tomorrow….hope that never stop even for a second…patience that never weaken us to wait and keep hoping. But perhaps, love can dies beyond the love if love is not as tough as the rock that stands for a million years and dosen’t stand by itself if there’s no better tomorrow…sometimes, love need intervention from God to keep us strong and out of a dying heart…a sweetest smile but a dying heart like a humor in a tumor.....hope that hopeless…patience that just an untouchable feeling….

I wish for a better tomorrow… and I keep wishing for I'll never fall from the evil side of sarcasm of love…and what i said is just a simple word with a countless meaning...

Hmmm…I guess…. i’ve got no mood today..yup…just now..so suddenly…..nothing to share and nothing at all…not because I’ve got problems but because I am feeling blue today… perhaps.. Self-dilemma might be the answer….. or perhaps I feel red at something that coincidently hurt my feeling even as if it is only just a joke but I do take it seriously.. perhaps, it’s just a misunderstanding or mis-concept .. but…the truth is I am in the mode of feeling blues…

Feeling blues at something that sometimes seems to be interfering… and disgust me at this “someone”…as if you are perfect but the truth between me and you nothing seems to be much difference but the bumptiousness of yours, make me almost irritated… and as if …yes…as if..duhhhhhhhh…thank God you are not in the list of my “best and good friends”

And I’m thankS to God…no one knows me better than my closest FRIENDS…